As the real courage is showing our weaknesses, the true beauty is coming from pridely admitting our mistakes.
Both in humans and objects, I love the instinctive beauty, deeply coming from inside. Only the planned, "made" beauty is perfect, natural beauty will always be stunning due to its mistakes. Only natural beauty can radiate, only from natural beauty is possible to draw strength from, only it has the energy. Everything else is just decorative glitter. The sight of white fur of polar bear, returning from hunting, coloured with blood can really thrill the human soul. As a child, I was often in front of the window , watching enthralled the red-orange-purple sunsets stunning contrast with the grey raw concrete tower blocks. Not to mention the slimy, wet, sweatened pleasure of eroticism. Such beauty easily can make You die. Such beauty worth to die from!
My home becomes wild and instinctively erotic due to bare and naked using of natural materials.
The plain brick kitchen counter, the cherry tree bookshelves, used in combination with its bark, a lamp covered with fox coat, all these things are expression of my respect to naked beauty of natural materials.
Also through my paintings, I would like to show beauty coming from deep inside, the sense of „beautiful”, as efficiently as I am able to.
While I am painting, I feel the desire to become a cherry tree, gnarled, rare brick, burnt clay or mud, in order to paint the elementary details and deadly beauty of love.
If only one of my bedroom wall paintings contributes only 1% succes in heating the passion between lovers, it was worth of working.
Our lives will only be nice if we can turn lives of surrounding people to be beautiful. This can be even a selfish activity for us, simply because if you do not think like that, the world around You can be full of growling, sour, wailing people, who You can be fenced by, and finally drown in the sad world which is created. So I want to demonstrate my love to contribute some love on heating up the fire, which might arise to simply selfishness: I want to see people in love around me. A person in love is radiating as nuclear energy no matter it is coming from happy satisfaction or heartbroken cries.
They say in lives of great artists, there is always a big break. So every artist has a defect. Maybe, but I do not believe in necessity of large refraction. Seeing someone defected is also just the question of having the right perspective. For example, for someone with the disease of purity mania, an irregular lifestyle-artist can seem to be defective.
The art can be noble, if it is sincere. It's not a big challenge for the goat, whose lifetime is very short and there are no social restriction and rules it had to contend with, and was not taking part of the games, not constant among men. It did not have to follow teachers, officials, friends, relatives, and even God. A man’s life is a long carnival with costume, where growing up does not mean anything else than to learn how to prepare ourselves our costumes. The appropriate costume for the occasion. In this opened world it is not an easy task. It is difficult to break the constant pressure of ratings frustrating us. I believe it is only possible through the arts. Learning the naked soul of other people is the way of showing how to become a goat, step-by-step.
To be honest does not mean telling the truth. Much more is involved when we talk about arts: stripped naked souls must stand before the audience. And it's harder than acting nude. If I'm naked and someone laughs, then I can use the fists to hit him. But if someone drops the costumes, he becomes extremely vulnerable. Anyone can kick him at the most painful point. I think this can be tolerated only armed with a strong sense of mission. A creative person, even if he does not tell me, in his heart he firmly believes in his greatness. Otherwise, he would not do such a completely useless activity.
A sense of mission helps ensure that the creative person is completely honest and opening his soul. This will only be effective if all the faults, all weaknesses are even boldly showed. The beauty of creative people is due to visible defects and the strength lies in the works showing weaknesses.
© 2011 Juhász Tibor